I can't stop thinking about you.

You have beautiful eyes
I just wish I could express it better.
I'd put my hand on your thighs
But I can't find the confidence.
I'd call you up and tell you how I feel
If I just asked you for your number.
I want to take you out for a meal
But I can't tell you.
You walk by me everyday
But you don't know me.
You wouldn't talk to me, you wouldn't hold me.

Poetry isn't my strong suit so I write this and force the rhyme because without it I'll be told that it's not a poem, just pointless prose. The poems I write will not get noticed, I won't be thrown a rose. See that last line? It wasn't needed but I added it to make things rhyme.

I'm stabbed by the stares you never give me
But not really.
I like symmetry but this is irregular
to symbolise how I feel about her.
Self reflexive poetry is odd
why read something that keeps you where you are?

You want to go on a journey don't you?
You want me to take you
To make you, dream
To carry your thoughts to a place away
From where you are
Through the clouds, through the stars
Yeah, look up, there you are.
But I won't. You're not there.
You are here. Always near
Full of fear, full of doubt
Choose a car. Choose a house.
Live this life
Make it count.
Don't write plays. Don't smoke ***
Don't say hot, don't say gay
You offend. Walk away.
It's your fault, it's not me.
I'm alone. Am I free?
I don't know any more.
She's a *****!
She's a *****!
I have time!
Make me rich!
Live for now!
For the day!
Carpe Diem!
Always say that you're mine!
Who is she?
Is she better?
Don't you love me?
Where's MY letter?
Where's MY ring?
Where's MY child?
Where's MY kitchen?
Where's MY car?
Where's MY life?
Where's the money?
I'm YOUR wife!
You don't love me!
Get out now!
Walk away!
Start again.
I won't stay.

I took time and took your troubles, left you alone all in your bubble. You wanted this you always said, you wanted me inside your bed with a house with a kid, you and me "ride or die" remember that? Of course not! That's why I'm never home. That's why I feel alone. That's why I drown my pain, I numb my brain and make it count, to take the bills off my account. I create chaos to create excitement. I've lost all time stuck in this system. I sit at home, I look at you, I read my books then start anew.

I can't look at her.
She's all alone,
She's in my arms,
She's in my home,
She's got a man
And so do I.
We know all this.
"It's just our life" We stare and say.
I've had enough!
I want a divorce!

...

We aren't together
Ironic, right?
We'd never love. We'd always fight.
And now we've lost all time.

He loved me and I knew it but the life we led, led him to do it.
She loved me when I was younger, when we were anxious, full of hunger.
We hung each other from the fan.
As life as in death, two separate souls in harmony. Woman and man.