One day I will learn my lesson and stop chasing after those who will never give me a fair chance,
I'll learn that I'll never be good enough for anything or anyone, I'll never get that spotlight dance.
The only thing I'll ever be good for is a bullet to the head and an early grave without a tombstone,
Everyday is another chance to better myself and make a new life, but I'm happy knowing I'll die alone.
Go ahead and tell me that you care and that there's a chance for me to be happy, because we both know it's a ******* lie,
I won't be happy, I won't be successful, I'm a nowhere kid who's only accomplishment will be the day I die.
Go ahead and tell me that there's a reason to breath the air into my lungs, that there's a reason to embrace the day,
But say it without that lost look in your eyes, because every word that you choke out, is just ******* that paths my way.
We all know that I have used my ambitions on nothing more than reasons to drown myself in this self-pity, this self doubt,
To drown myself in this poison until I'm living from the bottom of this bottle, hoping every night that I'm able to black out.
All I can ask is what do you do when you have nothing left in you, what do you do when you can't even feel alive,
Put on your cement shoes and fall into the ocean, the lifeboats left without you, so take a breath and take a dive.
Let the cold waters embrace you, let them fill your lungs and drag you into the deep blue, to the ocean floor,
They're the only thing that'll ever hold you close, the only thing that'll stay by your side as you breath no more