And now a search comes upon the poem, A search already possessed by what it searches for: Floundering in the hallucination of its darkness, Illuminated by the Light it tries to create.
(You are this Light That illuminates the darkness of the search For a light that it seeks to make In place of the One by which it searches.)
It turns to the poem for guidance Or amusement or distraction, In its effort to create the light It assumes itself to be.
(But this end that its ideal proclaims Lies disobeyed by the means prescribed: No search could find the light it tries to create Unless it surrenders itself to the present from which Light shines)
If the search stepped into this Light And ceased its attempt to replace it, As if to own or dominate it, Its light would burn.
(Here the search abolishes itself As it ends its violent struggle: As light-in-Light it finds its way to peace And surrenders its hallucination of control to truth.)
I found this passage the day after I finished this poem: βThat was the true Light which gives light to every man coming into the worldβ John 1:9. Note: capitalization matters!