I woke up on the gurney with pain that robs my breath. Broken ribs and a row of sutures running down between my *******. Strange to still be breathing when my heart is dead and gone In my chest Abio-Cor stubbornly pumps on.
Was it really just a week ago sitting with my friends in class when first I felt the stabbing pain. when each breath came as a gasp? My teacher called an ambulance He saved my life, friends say. A muscle killing virus caused my pulse to fade away. One hundred over forty I was quickly losing ground. I would need a donor transplant but none compatible was found.
I’m a high school girl, just seventeen -I should be college bound Not fighting for each breath and destined for a plot of ground. The surgeon asked my parents if he should try Abio-Cor an artificial heart replacement in which researchers placed great store. My crying parents, grasped the straw consenting he should try. They would operate immediately- delay would mean I’d die.
So now I’m in recovery with my artificial heart. My fiends call me the Tin Girl, because of my replacement part. It will be a long recovery- seven weeks if fate is kind.. I share my feelings with a heart still learning to be mine
It is amazing what they can do with medical technology these days. The proximate inspiration for this poem is my friend's niece who needed an artificial heart. At its core this is a poem dedicated to a high school friend who died forty years ago when this technology was not yet available. The title is a reference to the Tin man in the wizard of Oz. Point of view is that of a remarkable 17 year old girl. Part one of two