I don’t normally do this,
but tonight I lived the dream I
followed since age thirteen.
We laughed together, played videogames,
and I didn’t even care the room was tiny as
a cube.
Though I sat in silence I was seeing the moment
and ****** of who I will write checks with
and the people who will never be phased by
anything in my head.
Tonight I was happy I put down the knife or scissors
every time I decided to take it myself.
Tonight I thanked my mother who would lay beside me at night
and hear my every cry about being mimicked and mocked.
Tonight I thought of my dad who took time to buy tickets and
put up with my intense cheering as the Bruins won the game.
I thanked my brother tonight for spending time with me and blasting
hip hop in the car when nobody else would for either of us.
Though tonight,
I let my family do their own thing.
I kept them in mind and remembered every lesson they learned then passed
onto me about how to have a problem but to put it on the back burner
while with others and to fulfill their comfort.
I went out tonight.
These are people whom I want to walk this world and praise the lord
they are here and living the way they do.
Because tonight I shared moments of life with them.
I’m the luckiest woman on earth,
Thanks for the fun we had tonight, my beloved friends.
We’ll do this again, I don’t think it,
I know it.