My father had told me
That a man of God shows no weakness
That he bears the shame of his father's
But repents nightly
A man of God
Walks with his head high
And his grandeur low
Because the lord almighty
Takes from those who get cocky
So I grew to walk in his shadow
Willing him to snare me for my sins
And strike me down for my sorrows

But as the congregation hung to my words
Of everlasting love and imminent doom
I only became certain of one of the two
And as the bible unfolded into a loss of proof
My faith diminished and my anger furnished
A thirst for blood, whiskey, and the youth
I had given up
By always trying to do right
By an uncreated being
Who allegedly lived in the sky

Being a man of God had lost it’s power
In my heart
But had kept its weight in their eyes
Questions were never asked
And as a flurry of nameless women
Passed through my room
I wondered if my place
With God was holding my wife back

I wondered if her praying was an act
I wondered if she registered the smell of jack
I wondered if she minded the blue and black
I knew I had

I knew I had

I knew I had

I knew I had cowered at my father’s
Ironclad fist and brimstone eyes
As he sung the melodic justice
Of Romans 2:5
To the beat of my disfigured body
Growing into a discolored
Story of accidental black eyes
But a man of God does not dare cry
And because of my stubbornness and my unrepentant heart
I was storing up wrath against myself for the day of God's wrath
when his righteous judgment would be revealed
And now I dare him to try
As I grab the bottle and flee to the devil's side

I am a man of God
When the pews are full
And the word is by my side
I wonder if I repent enough
With the gun between my eyes
Will I still make it there
Will I even still try
I am a man of God
I will do what’s right
Say I’m sorry to my wife
And tell my mother goodbye
I am a man of God
Whiskey, lighter, Bible
By my side
Just give me chance
To dismiss my congregation
One
Last
Time