I scream your name down empty hallways hoping your voice will echo back. Sometimes I wish for the death of the emotions. I want to feel nothing, just for a moment. It's like everything in my life is crashing around me like waves on rocks and all I can think about is how you hate the ocean. I wonder what it'd be like if I just didn't exist anymore. How the world would carry on without me, how you would carry on without me. It's like seeing crumpled bed sheets and wondering who laid there next to you while you fell asleep. It's like a car crash you can't look away from. It's tragic yet hopeful. You see, I understand that things couldn't work out but I still manage to wish they do. I would start praying to god if there was a chance he could save us but things aren't getting better and I just don't believe.