I’ll be okay…
Is that what you want me to say?
I keep rereading your words
Hoping to find something hidden.
I want to know everything,
But you can’t tell me anything.
Everything you’ve told me
Has just been contradicted in the most serious way.
I can’t even look you straight in the face.
There are no words that I can say.
Not only did you lie once,
But you did it multiple times.
For the rest of my life, I’m going to constantly be wondering
If you’re willing to trade your happiness for mine.
Every night I try to fall asleep.
I want to drift off as fast as I can,
Because when I’m asleep, I no longer feel the pain.
I have nightmares that make me toss, turn and cry.
But nothing compares to the feeling when I’m awake,
When all I want to do is die.