i want to learn more about chemistry and a glimmer of astronomy, more insight into equine dentistry, and maybe a little of what's wrong with me, why i cant seem to every get my act together, why my feet fall far from themselves, my footsteps look so scattered, purposelessly, i desperately crave for them to have mattered. why i cant stop destroying beautiful things, and why i cant stop feeling like a caged bird that sings.