I cannot swim
But I can't seem to drown either
And no matter how hard I try
I can't seem to stop the dam from bursting

The fear and regret push and push
Against the wall of delicate skin
Until they ooze through the creepycracks

Like honey when you leave the top a little loose after making tea
But this is not water that you can drink
I try, but the viscosity disturbs and disgusts me
But the color is rich
Like a Valentine's Day rose

It chokes me
But I cannot stop drinking
It is in my throat and I can't breathe

I think that I am drowning

Then the dam will begin to rebuild itself
And just as I have caught my breath
Finally dry of the heavyscary water
I will hear the dam spring a leak

I will not run

I already know that I cannot swim

But I am not afraid
Because no matter how much water I drink
And no matter how hard I try to sink
My riverpain will not pull me down

Alas, I cannot drown.