Jan 2016
The day the bridge between us and the "us" made up of her and yourself, collapsed, she made her way to me. Displaying for me late into the night, the life you had planned together. Screaming to me how I had ruined it all, going on and on about how I was just a void, making it clear that you would go crawling back to her. She wasn't wrong but, that was before she knew you had room to grow.
I just want to know if you were aware of this plan. Did you know of the marriage and children you had been signed up for? Did you know that I was not included? I was not part of this plan. I was a voyage you had set out for unprepared, yet, so ready to escape the war back home.
There are nights when you've fallen fast asleep before me, nights when I close my eyes to the wonder of if your eyes and picture yourself in her arms. There are mornings when you kiss me hard before your eyes have opened and I can't help but question if that's you kissing her goodbye.
Do you ever miss her fist pinned against your skull. Do you ever miss her independence and drive to beat on her own. Do you ever miss the ease that came along with not having to set your hopes sky high because she wasn't deserving.
She kept the best from you. She wasn't ready to meet the man you were destined to become. She was wrong about you. She was wrong when she told me you'd never change because you change every other week. She would feel so weak when she realized that she hadn't stunted your growth with the all the unwanted blows she placed upon your delicate body. Her knees will become weak when she sees how we grew closer, became one and headed into this life; together.
Together now only because we had all met in pieces. Together, we went through fire, sank to the bottom of the deepest sea and my god, I know we all thought we would have been better off if we just let ourselves drown. But we did not. We all kicked for the surface, stretching our last breath far beyond its existence. We all made it and on the way up, we all found something new to fill our chests.
We were never voids, just dismembered silhouettes searching for a heart to **** the love out of. We live this life day by day, I live it with you and she lives it with him. But as once lived it together.
There are moments when past events hit us all at the same time and once again we are together, bound by thought, wondering where we would be if we would have followed the original plan; the plan that didn't consist of you and me.
S. Mia
February 10 2015
I just want to know if you were aware of this plan. Did you know of the marriage and children you had been signed up for? Did you know that I was not included? I was not part of this plan. I was a voyage you had set out for unprepared, yet, so ready to escape the war back home.
There are nights when you've fallen fast asleep before me, nights when I close my eyes to the wonder of if your eyes and picture yourself in her arms. There are mornings when you kiss me hard before your eyes have opened and I can't help but question if that's you kissing her goodbye.
Do you ever miss her fist pinned against your skull. Do you ever miss her independence and drive to beat on her own. Do you ever miss the ease that came along with not having to set your hopes sky high because she wasn't deserving.
She kept the best from you. She wasn't ready to meet the man you were destined to become. She was wrong about you. She was wrong when she told me you'd never change because you change every other week. She would feel so weak when she realized that she hadn't stunted your growth with the all the unwanted blows she placed upon your delicate body. Her knees will become weak when she sees how we grew closer, became one and headed into this life; together.
Together now only because we had all met in pieces. Together, we went through fire, sank to the bottom of the deepest sea and my god, I know we all thought we would have been better off if we just let ourselves drown. But we did not. We all kicked for the surface, stretching our last breath far beyond its existence. We all made it and on the way up, we all found something new to fill our chests.
We were never voids, just dismembered silhouettes searching for a heart to **** the love out of. We live this life day by day, I live it with you and she lives it with him. But as once lived it together.
There are moments when past events hit us all at the same time and once again we are together, bound by thought, wondering where we would be if we would have followed the original plan; the plan that didn't consist of you and me.
S. Mia
February 10 2015
