Jan 2016
"It's been 367 days since I realized,
The different feeling when I looked into your eyes.
What I felt was nothing but surprised.
And I couldn't make the same mistake twice.
Looking back, I was so afraid.
I asked myself, ""How is it made?""
My heart answered, ""Soon it will fade.""
But somehow I knew, it was already played.
Tears fall down like a rain,
But this love for you will still remain.
I wonder why I can still stand the pain.
It ***** that I used my heart instead of brain.
But no more crying, I can't cry anymore.
It won't happen again like I did before.
Tears will no longer touch the floor.
But for anyone else, still can't open a door.
I wish I could tell you personally.
'Coz you don't know how much it hurts for me,
that some things are just not meant to be.
So tell me, how do I stop this misery?
I lost myself, I'm falling apart.
I shouldn't tell this... you broke my heart.
Because the decisions weren't smart.
How can I unlove you? Don't know where to start.
You know it and yes it's true,
Despite of the hurts that I'm going through.
And I hate the way I could never hate you.
The love is so strong, if you only knew.
Can't help it, it's just so real.
Mad because I don't know how you feel.
I am lost, I am on the wrong track
Why am I giving you something I could never have back?
Too much pain someday it'll make me grow.
Some people told me, ""Just take it slow.""
And I ain't scared or afraid to show,
Because I love you... and that's all I know.
Loving you, I will never regret.
This kind of feeling, I will never forget.
It's my mistake, I let myself fall.
Because I thought I have the right choice to risk it all.
The different feeling when I looked into your eyes.
What I felt was nothing but surprised.
And I couldn't make the same mistake twice.
Looking back, I was so afraid.
I asked myself, ""How is it made?""
My heart answered, ""Soon it will fade.""
But somehow I knew, it was already played.
Tears fall down like a rain,
But this love for you will still remain.
I wonder why I can still stand the pain.
It ***** that I used my heart instead of brain.
But no more crying, I can't cry anymore.
It won't happen again like I did before.
Tears will no longer touch the floor.
But for anyone else, still can't open a door.
I wish I could tell you personally.
'Coz you don't know how much it hurts for me,
that some things are just not meant to be.
So tell me, how do I stop this misery?
I lost myself, I'm falling apart.
I shouldn't tell this... you broke my heart.
Because the decisions weren't smart.
How can I unlove you? Don't know where to start.
You know it and yes it's true,
Despite of the hurts that I'm going through.
And I hate the way I could never hate you.
The love is so strong, if you only knew.
Can't help it, it's just so real.
Mad because I don't know how you feel.
I am lost, I am on the wrong track
Why am I giving you something I could never have back?
Too much pain someday it'll make me grow.
Some people told me, ""Just take it slow.""
And I ain't scared or afraid to show,
Because I love you... and that's all I know.
Loving you, I will never regret.
This kind of feeling, I will never forget.
It's my mistake, I let myself fall.
Because I thought I have the right choice to risk it all.
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It's been a year and finally, we went our separate ways. Wherever you are, I hope that you're happy because I am. Knowing that I would no longer see you, or be with you everyday makes it easier to move on. From a year now I want you to know that it still hurts. Of course. But, I promise myself that I won't be distracted again. Because even though it still hurts, it's not killing me anymore.
Thank you for the memories I thought I'd cherish forever, but I had to let go.
Thank you for this unrequited love.
Thank you for breaking me.
And for everything I ever did that hurt you, for all the pain I've caused you, I'm sorry. This is the best I can do for myself. For a better me. For a happier and healthier me. And for what I lost with you.
You were a lesson."
It's been a year and finally, we went our separate ways. Wherever you are, I hope that you're happy because I am. Knowing that I would no longer see you, or be with you everyday makes it easier to move on. From a year now I want you to know that it still hurts. Of course. But, I promise myself that I won't be distracted again. Because even though it still hurts, it's not killing me anymore.
Thank you for the memories I thought I'd cherish forever, but I had to let go.
Thank you for this unrequited love.
Thank you for breaking me.
And for everything I ever did that hurt you, for all the pain I've caused you, I'm sorry. This is the best I can do for myself. For a better me. For a happier and healthier me. And for what I lost with you.
You were a lesson."
