heavy and hard to breath
confused by longing, love and jealousy
as they tried to squeeze into my heart
weakens me as minute passes

adding the frustration i felt
for some of my messages and drawings
like a reflection in the mirror
just bounces back at me.

frustrated to feel
that my love and care
could not get through her
though she looked at me and smiled.

frustrated to long
for her touch and warm
in this cold winter
when there's a wall between us.

Now I came to understand
that feelings are hard to contain.
only one thing that hinders us
and it must be destroyed.

Determined enough
I punched the wall
she was surprised
then looked like disgusted.

could not understand. why?
i punched the wall again
seeing same eyes
but telling me to stop.

i punched the wall again
i could not feel her presence
i stopped in fear
my fist is still against the wall

my eyes sting
as my heart goes in pain
teeth clenched
as i tried to deny my thinking

could not stop my tears from falling
blurs my eyes to see hers
now i ask myself as i regret to think
how much do you care about me?

i felt alone
how i wish the rumor is true
how i wish i could break this wall
just like the boy in the rumor did

i cried so hard and loud
but no one heard of me
no one even her