Black coffee with nothing But ginger I think this was the first morning I woke up with less difficulty My dreams less haunted, convoluted Scrolling through the internet morning Comforting sounds.
You seem to appear when I least want you to Your pictures and movements forward Testing and driving me on I want to look like the old hollywood queen of the ball Tonight.
A new year Our generation so jokingly states: "New Year, New ME!" I don't know that I will be new As if torn out of a barbie doll box for the first time Because I have seen, done, heard, lived so much In just a mere 25 years But I with a slight weariness I did, I made a list And I know I gotta make that bank I gotta push forward I gotta make strides Without you or him by my side.
Because you cannot force it You shouldn't have to chase it I shouldn't deny or convince my inner most feelings So I lie in my Chicago bed alone, late into the night Most nights And glad of it.
The sun greeted me this morning As if predicting some poetry I don't intend to sleep tonight But I do intend to not seek you out To not hope or long for you in the lights of the city Because it was never, ever about you I reassure myself through out the day But sometimes I wish I could erase your existence From the watery well of my mind.
First time without an Alabama ball dropping I don't know what to expect But I do what I can to better my spirit, my soul My heart, my mind, my body.
Evolving, changing, growing Flourishing. I've never felt such strong instincts about a new year. Not because I am new Or because I didn't say or do that But because Its all just on the brink Of beginning For me.