Tonight has been different
And tonight has been strange
This Christmas felt quiet
And we feel the same
It took me forever to figure out what to get you
And I guess that's why tonight I'm seeing blue
I had to dig up everything
All of the rusty
Old
Silenced
Memories
That I had tucked away
Didn't you take me out for your birthday?
I've never bought you anything in my entire life
(Ice cream, maybe? Once?)
I don't know what you're into anymore and I don't know what you like
Or where to draw the line
It can't be too much like it was
Because we won't have any of that [love]
Song lyrics, song lyrics, and song lyrics started to fill my head
The Mayday Parade, The Only Exception, and the Red
That's too much, too much, too much
What's left, what's left, (do you remember when we went for lunch?)
I think you like books still; maybe that doesn't change
I feel like those kinds of things stay the same
Oh god, now I'm rambling again
I'm such a wreck tonight I'm sorry for the mess
(Do you remember the time we made a milkshake
Back then everything was so fake)
And you probably won't even see whatever this is
You're never on as much as you were (you know what, ***** this)
I think it's time to shut it all out
Shut off the phone and sit in the shower
It's just easier to leave the rusty
Old
Silenced
Memories
Buried away where they belong
Maybe I wouldn't be writing this right now