Lacking motivation I drove my body down into the ground Until yesterday I was so elated to come home To smell the house, the outdoors To embrace the sunshine and take some time Away.
Today I feel slightly better But my heart and my head I just really wish I didn't have to experience pain like this. You have been worried about me all day You said late into the night But yet your movements and your actions They say so little.
Use it as motivation, talking it out into an oblivion All I really want to do is lay on my bed And not move an inch.
But I know I've got to get some rest I've got to start running again I have to watch what I eat I have to write I have to post on the internet I have so many, so many things to conquer My heart in my hands Once again.
I would reach out to you again If I thought you could talk But I set the desire aside I just cannot anymore. I've exposed me and put myself into the fire Only to feel rejected, disappointed But everything you could never Give.