It was a cold february night when our paths first crossed, ever so evident are those scars left by the lives lost, the last seven years spent avoiding those thoughts at any cost, lungs void of air, so much pain I will never share, trip without a single care, look to my side and you will surely see death there, living this kind of life he knows to stay near, life isn't worth living if you know fear, so I shed those thoughts as I reach for the peak, so many grams I refuse to speak, looking over the edge with my only thought being leap, a demented vision of the future has me deprived of sleep, looked upon as a monster because death and insanity is the only company I keep, take a second look and you will see that my flaws run so deep, addicted beyond all belief, trip to avoid the grief, broken promises and shattered dreams litter the path of my past, mental and physical scars from the last, only a few grains of sand left in my lifes hourglass, just waiting on those to pass, you were not my first love but you are surely my last, never knew time could seem so fast, your life will eventually shatter when its made of glass, sadly I know that firsthand, sixteen when I made my first stand, life should have been my only demand, but honestly death is all that was planned, Falling through life not knowing where I will land, this monster watched in pleasure as we said our last goodbyes, tears smudge the ink as my pen cries, nothing more than a hollow being as my soul flies, six for the rise, life is bigger than me and thats words from the wise, only darkness will remain once we sever these ties, its beginning to feel like this is something I can't ignore, so when you see me avoiding eye contact dont ask me what I'm doing it for, no one knows what life has in store, a feeling of emptiness like a lion losing its ability to roar, a caged raven whose only thought is to soar, most of my heart lost during the war, so thats what these grams are for, a ******* monster but good intentions lie at the at the core, but sadly I dont think I can take much more, so please dont cry when I walk through that door, this just means you will no longer know the pain I cause, quietly I whisper I love you then take a brief pause, knowing this addiction has always been one of my biggest flaws, I can hear this beast I've created as it sharpens its claws, one last smile as it begins to devour my soul, I know the last few years have taken their tole, you deserve happiness and I'm sorry I couldn't fill that role, when you said goodbye it left an undeniable hole, so I just tripped and tried to play it cool, I just didn't want you to know death was my only goal, a life without you isn't a life at all, so when I'm gone just add my name to that wall, then watch it crumble and fall, I wanted to tell you this myself but you ignored my call, just know I dont blame you at all, keep your head up smile and stand tall, wipe the tears from your face, maybe one day we can meet somewhere without time and space, but I wanted to say goodbye just in case..