i miss you i miss you i miss you the words are bitter on my lips they taste like anguish heartbreak deception betrayal so easy for you careless as you were with my heart (it's not enough) i can't help that there's a canyon at least five hundred miles wide where your name used to be i can't rid myself of you or what i thought was love it is the shadow beneath my eyes and the hollow at my throat the quickening pulse at my wrist and the blade along my thigh (laughable) looking back now i want to laugh but it catches in my throat because i remember the sweet ache i felt when i held you kissed you touched you my fingers curl and flex itching to wrap around something anything (a knife a bottle a throat) that could possibly dull this sharpness it's pushing between my ribs like a slow knife to the heart every time i think i am done with you i fall into that canyon again and am lost to myself