foreboding shadows elongate giving the entire property the feel of a cold October evening when the first frost lays delicate on the tips of the crab grass sending sparkles dancing across the still cow pond ….. a mounting sense of dread builds as each step weighs with the heaviness of broken hearts and balding men being divorced overweight girls in gym class and a backpack full of river rock at the end of a long hot trail ….. the wooden door looms looking like the elementary school principle after the first real fist fight an angry parent holding evidence of lies the boss the day after too much drink at the holiday party… a shaky hand reaches for the **** akin to autumn leaves rustling to the land below after a stiff breeze in the cool evening – upon opening the door I pay for a soft sigh passes my lips….. he is not present and so, at least for a moment, I have peace in my home –