"You, doctor, go from breakfast to madness." Anne Sexton
The engine of my amygdala: so burnt out I needed coolant, I needed something to prevent my immolation a sort of precautionary measure
***'s flammable I'd soon find out In a crowd of hundred dark and smoke crawled through my shoulders social little parasite apologize for being an interruption to everyone
"Wish I could've been there" Sucrose altruism, back at the mental hospital id relived every single second with you
thinking of your anger I read Tennessee William's letters I loved you
I even loved your hatred. A girl across the hall screaming about Jesus and her **** shouting singing Shenandoah
"But I don't need to be here," I turned to my roommate, a strong figure I still admire, "Everyone says that, even with a Thorazine needle halfway down their ***."
They'd had a name for it Something about kisses, I don't remember
"Yeah, it leaves a huge bruise on your ***," they laughed in the tv parlor
there we were The tristate area's teenage girls too unstable for the world
a step above "oh, you know how teenagers are" A girl with grey eyes
Came in my last night there "Is it normal to cry on your first day?"
I wasn't allowed to even touch her shoulder and so
with the alcohol and the Lamotrogine I tried to figure out where it'd all gone wrong
but it'd been hiding in me psychotic seed, a virus carrier a patient zero of my own