I now understand why people die from this,
from heartbreak.
it’s like I couldn’t breathe
everything hurt
normal things seemed impossible
I didn't want to be around anyone
To try and transcend hell
I was nowhere near transcending a **** thing
I was crawling through a trail of ashes,
the dark embers of a love that was once something,
something so mighty and powerful.


I now understand why people die from this,
from heartbreak,
from the loss of something that was.
why did he leave?
or why couldn't I have been good enough for him?
he would not stay for me, and who can wonder?
I gave him everything
yet he still packed his things and left.


I now understand why people die from this.
from heartbreak,
from the loss of something that was,
from the loss of losing yourself.