I definitely am not Kurt Vonnegut
but
After I kissed you
I whispered
“So it goes.”
Because after the first time our lips touched
I knew
I just knew
When you left it would hurt like hell
And I would probably end up dying.
But I would
Live in moments
Inside of your head
But just being a memory to you
Was not
Enough for me
It will never be enough for me
Because
When you fall in love
As quickly as I do
You get attached easily
I carved your name into my skin
But everybody asked if you were okay
I Was bleeding out
And they asked if you were okay
And then you wrote me a song
With a ******* times four
You shattered my ******* heart and acted like it was my fault
There is no poetic way I could say that
because heartbreak is not beautiful.
what you did to me is not beautiful.
here’s the funnier part
You got angry at me
Because all the poems were still about you.
You once told me my feelings were valid
And I am so sorry
That when I was with you everything was about the sun.
And that you thought I was
Perfect
And emotionless
Just like how most boys like you want people to be.
you never knew how I felt
you just knew that i was pretty
and I wrote poetry
So I had to be somewhat interesting according to your standards.
And after all of the miscommunication
you were doing just fine
But
I was stuck writing these poems
These God ****** poems
About how you made me feel
*****
And believe me
If I could write about the sun again
I would
But every time my pen touches paper
Your name spills out
And so do the memories
of your touch and your smile
And everything that made me fall in love with you
And believe me
there are so many reasons.
I remember reading this one cliche John green quote that said “I fell in love like you fall asleep slowly but all at once”
But God with you
I fell in love with you
So quickly
There was nothing slow about it
I fell in love like a person falls apart.
very quickly and unexpectedly.
I fall in love the most painful ways.
and I will not apologize for loving you
and I will not apologize for being upset
because I will never apologize for feeling
Even if sometimes I may feel too much.
So ******* x4