having every other time
earned my automatic forgiveness;
I cannot find a way to make you feel
the anger that burns me up from within
like a boiling fountain deep inside my guts
that spills scalding tears I cannot stop.
and I will not wait
for you to need me;
just so I can let you down
to see if you will hurt
the way I have.
no, I will not wait.
I will never wait for you again.