have you ever felt like ripping yourself open
with your own two hands
and staring at the floor
while your guts fall out

and then you move to your lungs
and tear them out
one by one
and throw them on the ground

and then you move to your heart
and you hold it in your hand
slowly squeezing
until it no longer beats

and then you smile
because it no longer hurts
while your body grows cold
and your eyes glaze over