Why do I allow this to happen when there is no flowing freely? I know this, I'm just completely and comfortably numb. I thought that I meant something to someone, because words mean nothing and actions mean everything. Alone here, I'm stuck, and tomorrow I'll be ready to leave. Leave my body, leave this earth, leave everyone who claimed to care behind, there's no future ahead, I see nothing. There's nothing left in this world for me, not one person will ever truly understand what I felt. The anguish and hatred, burning scarcely within me for my entire life. I am done with being a negative human, I am garbage, at least that's what you described me as this morning when I decided that I am ending my life.