pain in my chest
no not that kind
i hurt
physically
yes
but deeper
and more to the right
yes there
feel it?
my heart beats a little slower
the cracks are slowing it down
i thought they were sealed up
didn't you?
i thought they were mended
i suppose i was wrong
this pain is self inflicted
a deeper sting
i could take a slap in the face
a bullet to the back
or a knife across my throat
but this?
not this
not this
when the pain is of my own doing
it causes jagged scars
and deep deep wounds
wounds that take ages to heal
if they heal at all
but i will take it
i'll hold onto this pain
as a reminder of all the ways
i have hurt myself
and you
and everyone i love