for the first time tonight, i danced.. i dont mean like i usually do every monday-sunday, i mean like i do when you sit on my bed and watch me, music loud enough that the neighbors could hear, and our eyes on each other. for the first time tonight, i felt.. fifteen people in the room and all i could think of was you. i felt the music, like you used to tell me. i imagined you, like i always seem to do before i perform. and ill admit, i cried, because my body knows, my heart knows, you are supposed to be here. for the first time tonight, i accepted.. things are different now, but i hope you are still happy. things are different now, but i still love you just as much, if not more.