I don't like
these feelings
I'm so sick
of myself
for feeling how I do

I don't understand
how you can tell me
such sweet things

Promise me a better life
as long as
we're together
nothing
&
no one else matters

So many talks of
this
never ending love
you've
attained just for me

I'm your dream come true
your one and only

But You hold secrets
& blatantly
talk  to others
about me

Never have you said
one nice thing
in regard's to me

Whenever you've spoken
of me

It's been all the negatives
you've not mentioned your self
never about
your
WRONG DOINGS
&
not in front of me

Only all my problems
and how I make you feel

While taking advise from them
on us  yet not once
have you ever truly come to me


Keep talking to them and making it hard
let the advise you right out of my  life
& this here ****** up so called relationship

How funny
'cause you're pose
to be the one
to protect me
honor and cherish me

How can YOU ever
expect me to trust you
or believe in you ever again

when topic of discussions
have always been me
more so out of anger
yet none the less

I've never spoke
bad to anyone about you
even when given the chance to
I see no reason to do it EVER

so it'll only hurt the both of us
least that was my thinking

We're grown adults who have so many
ways to communicate
yet you rather
speak to others concerning me

You get a kick out of putting me down
& this helps how
by making fun of me or my mental

doesn't work either
not for me
or what we could of shared
so why do it and why hurt me

Everyone has issues  
complications and problems

The ones between us
could have been worked on

You'd rather
speak to others instead of me
lied to me right in my face
as you looked me in my eyes

Sadly-pathetically so
I believed you and
you betrayed me

Caused me to to fall for
an illusionistic relationship
a fictional reality

I had a desire to be loved
above all else

Thought I was chosen
out of an undying
unyielding love

I've come to find this
isn't true
and it's never gonna be

I'll FOREVER
play
second fiddle
like a
monkey in the middle

Tired seems to be all I am
and ever can be

Sick of this burning
longing
to belong
to have someone
I call home

Because
if home is where the heart is
then I ain't got one

Your heart
isn't even close anymore
to
being
my home sweet home

'Cause I don't have
no more room
for all this so called love
or
what you kept showing
to be your type of love

My undoing
was you proving

* I've been entertained
by your delusional
despicable
deceptions
of a falsified
made up
"relationship"

We can't ever be
what
you've just proved
we
aren't
and
always will be
completely & utterly  
STRANGERS!
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