Words are beyond lost right now
I think this is what it feels like to be numb.
I know this is when I'm supposed to have faith and hope and this is when it is most vital.
But where to begin?
Where to decide that from this moment on I am going to be happy.
Happiness is something I seem to treat as a destination.
Happiness is a mind set that only God can help me achieve.
I love God and I love being able to not feel held back by anyone in this manner.
I just know I feel lonely.
I feel insecure.
What makes people decide they don't want me?
Is it the fact that I can't help where I've come from?
You can tell someone all you want to work on their issues, but tell me how is that going for you?
Do you have everything figured out and every ghost distinguished?
No I know you don't.
So don't judge me for mine.
He once told me not to let anyone tell me I'm not worth it, so here it is, I know I'm worth it.
You tried to tell me I wasn't but you didn't break me like I thought you would.
In fact I feel stronger and motivated.
God can see who wins in the end and I know it is us.