I expected something like memories, lost eyelashes marking the paths where our laughter bounced off of buildings disturbed birds and audacious shouts
Something within me said, yes, this is the feeling, this is what I was waiting for blue eyes and full lips Hair as beautiful as your hands white teeth, beautiful back
But as the day dripped by slowly like molasses from my fingertips I heard nothing not a smile, not a sigh not a look from your eyes, not a sideways grin
I did not hold your hand or run my fingers down your side I did not touch your lips or bump thighs on the sidewalk
because you do not exist
or you did not, in the moment that i wanted and now i hardly think you ever will have the chance again the water that was my soul is resealed in its tupperware
and the dolphins in my pockets have been erased away just a little bit more fade fade fade
fade until there is no more fade until it's all rock hard