No more excuses, no more laughs and fake smiles/ I've got to change, I'm so stuck in the past and dwelling on the future that I can't even choose where my present will be/ I've choked up and looked at myself as a clown and haven't even chosen my path, I'm straying from the given path and getting off at the wrong stop/I have to change for the better and no it's not for Rocky, it's not for my mother, it's for me, it's so I can adore what I'd become, so I can love myself like I love my mother, so I can love myself like  my friends and enemies love each other, unconditionally/ ironic right, hate turns to love and love turns to hate, but me the one person I'd rather not be is me, I hate myself with a passion because I always disappoint and never intend to/ I break down on the inside and crying is the thing I'd hate but love to do because it will let me know that I've become more than a man, I've become a man whose dreams became reality/  I'll become that person that's not looked at as another statistic, I'll be the kid everyone looked at as better day, the kid everyone put a burden on and he led them in the right path/ he helped them like they helped him, stories will be told of his ***** ups and then his strives will be brought up like water to a dry ocean/ he ***** up and then he arrives with a different way of thinking, his love becomes reality and he explains it through his actions not his words/ lust becomes his enemy and he eventually destroys it, it may have seemed to him like an endless maze of sorrows and endless ******* with nothing but desires unfinished/ but now, now this boy will become something better, his heart will become his desire, his love for a better self becomes his true friend and he does not stop till he feels his heart, he does not stop till that dark heart beat becomes apart of his mind state and motions/ for the better this boy WILL change in the aspects of Gods love, he will not hesitate and be afraid he will look at the ocean and not see darkness he will see his reflection and see his light shine through, he will see his heart beat louder than a whale squeal, he will become the one outstanding piece in a puzzle he will cause love to be his motive and will not change that motive until love is being until love is seen in the opposite *** and that love shown is given on a wide scale/ he may choke in certain aspects or maybe all, but he will not change his being, he will become the boy who became a man for the better.........