There is a tornado within me
Stealing my breath and polluting my lungs
My emotions raging like a wildfire
Destroying everything in its path
Leaving mass destruction and hate
Ash filling the once beautiful lively field
That was my heart and soul
Rain falling from my sad closed eyes
Enough to drown me and envelop me
A thunderstorm logged in my throat
Threatening to escape and bark
I have to keep it together
I cannot let you see me fall against myself
So all you see is the sunshine
The bird's chirps escaping my lips
Sweet talking about love and happiness
I am afloat on a soft white pillow
But sometimes my cloud changes color
It roars and a storm is released
A flood rushing in to drown my emotions
This is anger and sorrow
Like hot and cold when it forms a tornado
Giving anger a cigarette
A puff of smoke to release it all
Giving anger a bottle of whiskey
A shot to drown it all
I try and contain my thunderous emotions
But sometimes a sob escapes wanting more
I try and fake a smile to lead you on that everything is okay
But sometimes my thoughts curl around my heart
I am a whirlwind of emotions released and contained
I will let you see my happiest thoughts and memories
I will spread them like dandelion seeds
But there is a closed and caged door that no one knows about
All the haunting and horrifying thoughts and emotions
I will always hide and contain the demons.