Most phrases don’t bother me and the ones that do I tend to avoid using. However there is one phrase I regularly use that I very much despise. “What if”. I say it all the time but just think about it, It *****. I mean, when it's used people usually complete the sentence with a hope or something they wish would happen. Deep down everyone knows it’ll never happen. Unless you're a hopeless romantic like me you have no problem understanding that. However if we are alike in this way, you understand how hard it hurts to think that whatever your “what if” is, won’t come true. Why do I choose to torture myself with these foolish “what if’s” or “I wishes”. I know they’re completely incapable of coming true, and yet I still wish them. I walk around everyday saying “I wish this didn’t happen.”, “what if I never moved away?”, “I wish you’d love me the same way I love you.” I say these things knowing they will make me upset. No matter how much I cry about them or how down they will make I can’t comprehend the fact that they won’t come true. There's nothing I want more than you. So I wish and dream and hope and pray and cry and fight for it, for us. But you just sit there and watching and laughing and killing me, killing us. “What if it was the other way around?” “I wish you could understand my pain.” You don’t want me, and yet that's all I ever wish for.

I hope i’m not alone in saying this. I know there is at least one more person who feels the same way I do about these silly phrases. I must sound ridiculous. I just wish I didn’t sound so stupid.