I've taken this half baked body of mine and put it in a safe
two nights it's been in there and nobody inquired
I opened the casket and discovered where my heart lay melting in with the knots in the wood and shining like the iron locks
I found these fingerprints all over it crisscrossing to my hand
I found you in them, friend I followed you into the land
Of bees and antelopes and margosa trees scattered and fat like you and me with olive brains in the sandy beach and candy eyes as white as bleach
I peered into your delirious face and with my white, cold frightened hands tried to scratch your knuckles into existence "Wake up!" I said, "Wake up, you man!"
You said, "let's analyze the form" and I decided you were completely torn
Your zipper lines from head to toe were hanging out, you let them show
Little tea cups lined the path to the bridge I looked at them and their tiny cracks the painted flowers had no beginning nor end the handle was liquid from the bend
I sat and waited and thought and pondered and existed and more
about whether I was meant at all for this place or if I should have left my mind in the casket with the knotted wood
Or if it had already been lost drifting away with the marmalade sea
This is a lot of nonsense that I sporadically wrote after having an existential crisis followed by a horrifying nightmare. No, this has nothing to do with the nightmare.