What i needed was the new life coming into mine. In this period of time i was hoping to tell you hello and possibly goodbye, I was looking for new people, the attention of someone new. The embrace and the warm hello of a new soft voice, the different kind of embrace that told me, "i was your friend, i think you are worth more than that" would also be nice. In this period of time I realize who i am and become afraid because the weeks are trickling away. In this time I realize what the scarred were talking about when they say that its easy to give away all of your trust to one person and be positive that they will give it back and its easier to cut off the string completely. I think she cut mine a bit short. In this time i realized that my left over love can be thrown at a rebound and tossed right back into my face with stupidity. In this time i realize how the attention i've been looking for was in the dirt i've walked over a million times. I brought them back up and greeted them with a smile because i knew what it was like to only rely on one friend. She was enough but im scared that i will completely latch myself onto one person. In this time i realize that loving them was hard. In my present time, were ending this short period of time. I realize that these weeks are exactly what I needed.