So here it goes again.
Like a bad nightmare
My body is longing
Anxious
In so many ways
I've cried twice in the past
Ten times more for you

Because I know what I want
And what I will do are different

I am a responsible adult
Void of emotions
Full of logic.
He's...
Perfect.
You are flawed.

You reach out and
All I feel are emotions
Crippling emotions
Anxiety about my
Craving
for your touch
Wanting to love you
Heal you

He is flawless
In everyway my compliment
Except I can not reciprocate
His undying devotion

What is wrong with me?
Feels like a choice between
My best friend and my heart