Why do I think of you
I think of you every morning
I think of you every night
I think about not thinking of you

I think of your crooked smile
I think of your crystal blue eyes that I could never read
I think about your smell, smelled like home
I think about your warm touch
I think about us making love

But then I think about how nothing was real
I think about you with her
I think about the first time someone told me what you did
I think about how my heart sunk into my stomach
I think about falling to my knees weeping
I think about what you did

I think about how I didn't give up
I think about how I never stopped loving you
I think about how I wanted to cry in your arms
I think about what I did
I think about how I wasn't good enough
I think about what you did

But then I remember
I remember that you were the soul I thought
I remember how much love I gave you
I remember giving my heart my soul my spirt to you
I remember how careless you were
I remember how you never really did love me
I remember leaving you for the last time
I remember my heart physically hurting when I said goodbye
I remember realizing that I am who I am

I am incredible
I am loved
I am free
I am a new me

I think about how I should thank you
I think about that without you I wouldn't be who I am
I think about the heart break you gave me
I think of you
Every night
Every morning
Why do I think about you still?