I hope you smell me, get a hint of my shampoo as you brush the hair off of her shoulder or her eyes are the same colour as mine, a shade of Autumn you would say. Smell me in the mixture of potions as you walk past the perfume shop, you can't quite put your finger on one. Smell me in the baby oil, an act of such pure intentions taking us back to our earliest days. I hope you see me, in clubs the back of a head from some stranger whose hair is the same colour and I am haunting your memory do u feel it or do you see me in the faded face in a passing car window that makes your heart jump and your eyes double take. see me as a ghost on the streets we use to walk close your eyes and hear me laughing as we leave, drunk and decide where to eat footsteps clip clop and occasional stumbling I hope you hear me, in my favourite song as it comes on the radio or in the strings of the violins tear at your heart strings when you play the orchestra solo at Christmas. or hear me in the cheesy songs and imagine me, the way I'd put my hands in the air and pop my hip. shaking my hair and see the music, pure life in my eyes. most of all I wish you could feel me, now. put a hand around my waist and move my hair off my neck. lay a kiss on my cheek as I sleep and you say I am 'blowing bubbles' and maybe you will taste me in the back of her mouth as you knelt and she said yes and it will taste like poison because it's been too many years to take back and you know, now, it should've been me all along.