I decided one day
To leave this place

The therapist
Didn't give me much notice

I guess she is just a liar
A liar

Who never really cared
My best friends don't call either

I'm tired of the emptiness
And loneliness

And so I'm driving off
On this day

Taking the rental car
Matt has gone away

I decided I don't like life
Anymore

Decided everything
Was a meaningless bore

Forget this creator
This Jesus that never cared

Who never brought my female friend
Who was going to give me a hug
Or say "there there"

F* human life
The pointlessness
Of it all

I'm climbing up a mountain
Tonight

I'm going to have
A great fall

10,000 feet above the ground
I walk toward the edge

A step, a step, another step

And then I'll fall and be dead

Hedonists live for ***
And pleasure
Doing what they do

In this life
You soon find out
How much you

Are really f* *******

I loved everyone
But no one really ever loved me

I do have one good friend

But I have found out
What a f up place

This can be

Banned from one chat room
Forgot my password for another

And now I can't log in to either

So I say Oh brother

Somebody wake me up
From this dream

Is this life real?

Oh that's right
It's just a movie scene

One scene moves to
The next scene

Until the body dies

I cry upon my wooden desk
People are full of lies

The therapist
Who went away
Married a fatso
Okay?

He's not fit like me
But women love guys
With a bunch of money

There is no when night
Turns into day

A student said the Matrix
Was his favorite movie

And it's one of mine too
Okay?

I don't want to feel
Anything
Just want to be left
Alone

Just want to sit in my room
And write these **** poems

I won't be respectful or nice
To the one who paid the price

All we do is suffer here
Jesus I find it queer

How many thousands of years
Do we have to wait for your return?

The suffering saints
Growing wearing
And waiting each day

When will Jesus come
To make the pain go away

My shoulder bothers me
But Jesus doesn't seem to care

I'm the guy you see
Standing alone
Standing over there

At the gym I'm on
The bike

I watch the members pass by

And as I walk out the door
I look up at the sky

No community of professional
I'm just a sub after all

I am a dull
And akward man
I stand about 6 feet tall

I want to share my poems somewhere
With women who would care
Who would hug  me
And say there there

And the movies all
A F** lie
That has not life has
Been for me

No joking with friends
Or any type of
Social community

No money to date
Or to do anything fun

For exercise
I sometimes run

Just go on suffering
That's what the Buddha says

Don't try to stop it
After all
One day
We'll all be dead

Friends and family
All loved ones
They will one day
Pass away

It's just human life
It's not that special
Okay

The same dull frown

I just sit at parks
I don't make a sound

Miserable life
What a dump

Don't eat fattening foods
Or they will make you plump

I am paid twice
The minimum wage
To tell people
To write words
On a page

I press my shoulder
Into the ground
A small grunt
I make
Can you hear the sound?