What it is to be numb
Creep inside my mind
I live for the moment
To see the color of your eyes once more
The struggles they hide
Those sorry eyes

I never meant to harm
But the battles lost on bare arms
A war without a victor
Synchronized... We pull the trigger

But I forgot the way your lips felt and I'm
Sickened by the absence of your laughter
My attempted fix was all too late
Our days of being something great
When you gave me all you had
I just wanted to give something back
But being something to someone,
And coming up short
And emptied out heart I was never enough
Realizing that this was going to be tough
Backing down to leave room for someone else to take my place
Quick, painless to leave without a trace

Some call it treason
My actions without reason
Turned away on what once was
I never wanted to be the cause

You needed closure
Now I'm one step closer
To find an answer dreaming
Useless misunderstood meaning
Insomniacs do they dare
Sleep is but a begged nightmare

An explanation, darling
For this life, we're just learning
A method to my madness, dear
raw open wounds, decisions unclear
Neglect and shots from the cannon
Love wrecked and abandoned

I can't bear to be the tear from your eye
Honest I've tried
The damage is done
And sometimes wish that I was gone
I hope you find her out there
She'll be able to prove, show love, show care
The girl who can mend your stubborn heart
she'll treat you as you are, a work of art

And how does one recover
If it effects you everyday
And you can't take back the things you did
Or the things you had to say

I don't see how I'll ever breathe easy
Becoming a monster so beastly
Days and weeks without feeling sober
Wishing for the day this will all be over
I want to detach myself from this life
A silent night, suicide