your gaze rests upon my shoulder like a black hole sinking me into an oblivion where only our two heartbeats will be heard
I fear to look up
please, stay. while I keep my heart at distance.
the nuclear energy flashing in your eyes, the places on my neck that rate on fire where your lips could ravish, the edge-of-combustion feeling inside of me when I see you…
this contagion of desire that sinks into the skin above my heart is a garden I don’t dare stroll into for fear I might find I desperately need a life filled with only our laughter
I don’t want you to live inside of me like a secret wind with all the loneliness of a leaf in the forest who is denied love through the dark green spaces that it forever remains
where sunlight has forgotten it and its unreachable happiness is a sadness that moans and pushes its solitudes deeply into the root of its tree and where loneliness is a desperate cry after it has been torn from its anchor
love is a dying hope where my heart can lie restless like the leaf farthest from the stars
so, please not too close
your nuclear eyes are a bargaining chip I can’t afford as they stir my soul into an endless dance of wanting and hope the source of possible pain where I could find myself offering my soul in wholeness
a death for life simply to light a fire on my shoulders from your mouth where my skin turns into a newborn star a flash of radiance that awakens the universe
your touch could, quite possibly, be a never ending creation of universe within universe a collision of existence like life itself blown apart where the end of the universe is where two dormant hearts awaken and cause life to recreate itself
distance… my black night that asks the moon for her light
you make me want to love, or die, or leave
and this confusion stirs in the pit of my stomach like a stone in the darkest place of the ocean
so I break away from your gaze and fade back into the shadows where my heart talks to the stars once again to dream of a nuclear kiss that I may never have the courage to accept for my heart cannot afford another death