25th june
i didn't know what i was up for
did i know that 4 months later
i'd end up in a state
where sleep was my only escape

you invade my every thought
my every moment
my every second
and yet i barely even
cross your mind

and though i know
what i am up for
i am always taken
by surprise
by these unwanted feelings

your fourth conquest
and you barely know two
and here i am
holding my heart out to you
i told you about yourself
and you said
"these are the kinds of love you need to avoid"
and i told you otherwise
but i guess no one knows one much more than himself