it is easy to become lost in the blinding lights of new york city and the deafening sound of yellow taxi cabs and screaming neighbors and the chatter of mundane conversations between people who are ghosts in every sense of the word with their paper thin hearts and transparent minds and the inability to feel something other than the heavy weight of coffee in their stomachs
it is easy for people to say that when new york city was made God himself struck down and said "let their be light" but all i ever see is the blur of motion as everyone runs to jobs they all hate working with people they despise and then spending their money at stars that don't even shine in poorly lit movie theaters when the real ones are in the sky and in new york every expensive restaurant is vegan friendly and boasts animal rights and shames everyone who doesn't but no one ever wonders what happens to the ducks in central park during december
it is easy to fall in love with new york city. with the magic that it spreads with the euphoria that you feel being surrounded by others with it's almost frightening ability to take away your loneliness and manipulate you into thinking you are happy, it is easy to fall in love with new york city.
it is also easy for you to say that you lost yourself in new york because even when you say it no one will hear you over the sound of madison square garden and it is easy to call new york paradise it is easy to call it the city that never sleeps because everyone stuck there is paralyzed
(h.l.)
i've often been told that i embody the catcher in the rye and i'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing