Why am I like this?
What have I turned into?
You're all I think about
and I feel like a lost puppy most of the time,
like I'm waiting for you
to seek me out and find me.

Why?!

What is it about you that has reduced me
to repeated I love you's
and I miss you's
and I can't wait to see you's?
I have never been so honest about my feelings
to anyone before
and this terrifies me.

The power that you have over me,
that I have given you so willingly,
terrifies me.
And now,
you're all I write about.

I like to write about what I see
happening around me,
the people and things
that matter the most to me,
and my thoughts
so thank you!
You have made writing
so much easier for me
because you have blinded me
to everything happening around me,
you are what's happening around me.
You are all that matters to me
and I cannot stop thinking about you!

I cannot stop thinking about you!
I cannot stop thinking about you!
I cannot stop thinking about you!
I am starting to think that
there is something wrong with me.
This cannot be normal.
This is not healthy,
I should know;
I was always a sick child.
And this is so strange to me
because the only way
to make me feel better
is to think about you.

On the days that I spend
too much time alone in my room,
where I hate the world,
when I want nothing more
than to just go home,
where I spend hours in bed,
clutching a pillow and wishing it was you,
on the days that I miss you,
I think of you.
I think of you.
I think of you...

I don't know why I'm like this.
I don't know what I've turned into,
but when I think of you,
*it all makes sense.