Every whiff my nose inhales
I fear reeking and smelling of you
Red blemishes shouting what could have been
I erase every line of a profound prophetic future
You dangled in front of my face
Of what you pretended was unity
You and the guilt you surely
Must still carry, like a tourtoise shell
On your man child back
I should have known
There was no real forever
In your deception, manipulation
And clouded lullabies.

The train huffs and puffs
In the blue line station
As my stomach grumbles and rumbles for food
Everything was unappetizing to me
Until really today
And my nose tricks me
My fingers tell me otherwise
Longing for your scent to disappear.

So I don't reply
And I don't weep siren tears
But my heart just skipped a slight beat
When I thought I saw you
Through the blue line windows.

It wasn't you.
And a bearded man across from me
Looked at me with solemn interest
I pull myself out of sadness
Getting teary in the Forever 21 downtown
I ponder how to return your clothes
With avoidance of you and your *******
Because I don't want you in my house
I don't want you in my room
I don't want you in my head
I don't want you in my bed
And there it is circling and twirling:
With the gleeful vengeful thought
That your body is marked forever by my spiritual and sensual
Essence
Even if you had the nerve to claim
I wasn't your forever.

And that brings me real pure joy
I leave my friends early
I wrote a poem on the train
I forgot my headphones at home
I continue to lift myself out of
What I thought we were

There is so much love and strength
I have so much love and strength
No one holds me back.