I am next to you
In the velvety darkness.
I can hear the city breathing
From just outside your window,
Breathing like you.
Your soft, rhythmic sighing blends with the sounds of life drifting in from the street
And it's like you're the same,
Uncontainable, indescribable.
The light kisses the soft lines of you
And your lovely, wild hair cascades down the pillows.
I feel...
This is what I want my nights to be like.
I want to know you're safe, sleeping beside me, I want to feel you here-
The smoothness of your skin pressed up against mine intermittently
The way I can feel your heartbeat through your chest.
You're so present, so real and warm and... Mine,
And I want to kiss you dizzy
I want to map every inch of you with my hands,
Always longing to be closer.
But I just lie back into the pillows, feel you breathe.
I wonder, are you dreaming?
Behind those green eyes
What worlds are there, playing out the musings of such a soul?
Ah, the familiar feeling-
I long to know you
Every part of you
Every shame and insecurity you are worried I'll find
I want to find them and love them all
With the same tenderness that I love your voice and your lips and your passionate mind.
I want to be close to you in ways I don't even know what to think of.
You turn, mumbling, and reach for me
And something in my chest
Rises and falls all at the same time.
I never know
In this life
How long I will get to be happy
But this is forever
This right now
This
Is something that I won't come back the same from
No matter what happens.
So safe, so tender...
I could be anything with you.
I could grow into anything, nourished by your gentle glow.
I long for you
And I long for the person I will become the longer I spend in your arms.
Change me.
Make me.
Heal
Me.
For all my fears that you will tire of my gifts
And of my constancy
For all the scars I bare and all the times my world has ended
When I look into your eyes I cannot fear you-
I am too alive.