All I sees is crossroads, I take one step forward trying not to look back at the path I once walked. I find myself currently confined in a unrelenting never settling storm, why do I even try to keep going on. Stuck in my business suit looking like such a fraud, I live in a broken home, where my family always gets into fights, instead of sitting down and have a cleansing mature talk. Childish adults, but I still choose to go out every day for work, so I can provide for my son. I don't want him to grow up like his old man, bitter, filled with regrets that if he had another chance would take it back. The world is cruel, people are crude, but when I look in my son's proud eyes when I walk through the door, it makes this life seem more bearable. Walking out in the stormy dark night, I see people with umbrella's looking down at me like i'm a quack. I try not to look, I just want to stay on track, don't care what others think, as long as I can keep food on the table. My son doesn't seem to worry about us being poor, he just smiles and tells me, " I love you daddy, because you're so strong." I don't perceive myself as strong, I am definitely determined, but knowing my kid see's me as a super hero, helps me stay sturdy in this uncertain world. No santa, no tooth fairy, no easter bunny, no vacations to disney land or to a tropical island; I feel guilt and shame that I have done wrong. Two sides of me keep arguing how I should be, or what I should do, same as the rest of my family who always say, " you're such a failure Jerold." Not my boy though, the light of my life that guides me to achieving my goals.  I want to see the world with my son, I want him to experience all the different kinds of food, I want to teach him how to never lose track of his morals. Giving him the life I never had, giving him the hope to keep dreaming, giving him a better education to decipher between conspiracy's and fact. All this I consider as I stand waiting to walk across the road to find a new job and start a new life. I am only temporarily out of my current job, I am only currently out of order with my and family relationships. I will no longer let the past or others dictate who I should be, I will finally be me, choosing not to be dragged down by strife. Not just for my son, but for me as well walking towards my destiny, no longer going to waiver, because I got both of my hands on the wheel of life, with a a firmer grip.