God and Creation
God and the Church
God and Me

A husband and his bride
Two lovers wrapped in a divine embrace
A love that is so close, so intimate, so beautiful
It could not possibly be broken from the outside
But within
Within
Within it is delicate
It is sensitive
It is fragile
Because it is love

And fragility is not weakness
But it is vulnerability
It is nakedness
And as I stand before God
Naked
He says, “I see you, I know you, and I’m not going anywhere.”
But as I look upon perfection
It seems the only thing left to see
Is my imperfection
And I say, “You see me, you know me, so I’d rather be anywhere but here,
and I’d rather be anything, but naked”

So I run
I run away from a perfect love
And into broken arms and broken hearts
Broken hearts that don’t care to know me
They only care to feel me
And I only want to be felt
Because it’s easy
But it’s empty

Why am I imperfect?
Why do your white linens
Show off my stains?
Why can’t I bleed away my stains?
Why do you have to see me *****
before you can wash me clean?
And why can’t the washing be easy?
Why does it have to hurt so much?
And why is it that even though everyone says the work on the cross is finished
I still feel like I’m waiting for it?

You are God:
Promiser of providence
So why can't you guide me where I want to go?
I know
The answer is in the question.
And I know
Your guidance will take me to a much better place
And honestly
I want to follow your voice and run into your arms
But I can't
I can't bear the thought of revealing to myself
What you already know:
That I am broken
And I can't fix myself
See as long as I keep myself in this hallucination
That either I'm not broken
Or I am working to make myself better
Then I can keep myself busy
righteously
Because as long as I keep moving
I don't have to rest
Because in rest
You are there
And where you are
The truth reigns
And for someone who wants to be independent
Who wants to be able to fix himself
That is terrifying

"Do not be afraid
"Be still and know that I am God
"I see you and I know you and I'm not going anywhere
"You are broken, you are sinful, but I'm not going anywhere
"You can't fix it, but I will. I'm not going anywhere
"I'm not going anywhere."