Sometimes I wonder
why
I'm even trying.
So I take another sip from the bottle.
My life changes
depending on my mood.
I don't deserve this I
tell myself
I shouldn't be here,
I shouldn't be anywhere,
I shouldn't be,
so I take another sip from the bottle.
But, it wasn't all my fault.
Other people made choices too,
I tried to do my best.
I tried.
So I take another sip from the bottle.
I only made my decisions.
They are what's wrong with me.
None of this would have happened
if it wasn't for them.
I pour my revenge nightly:
glass by glass.
But the glasses take too long...
So, I take another sip from the bottle.
And revenge is
a dish best served cold.
I deserve better than this I
tell myself.
I should be somewhere else.
I should be somewhere,
but I'm not,
and it's all their fault.
And one day I'll prove it,
but right now all I have
is a cold bottle of revenge.
So, I take another sip from the bottle...