screaming, tears
you left again
no words said
i sat outside, cold
wind touching me
in every way
that i wish you would

you're my addiction; my drug
painkiller to my pain
but my pain?
i'd say you

curse at me, curse me
i'll retreat
tears at my feet
but you won't care -
you never do

lies; i make you happy?
how can that be
when you're laughing
with everyone
except around me

my skin has grown
cold and pale
absence of love
making me frail
but my heart still sparks
when you reach for my hand
other than that?
whispered ***** secrets
between the sheets
i'm then left to strip
guilt built over me

shaky, anxious
i'm not who i used to be
you've killed the me
who only ever wanted
complete release

no longer feel pain
when i cry, no tears come
only aching in my chest
from empty numbness
that you left